It’s been quite a while since my last post, but here’s the faggot updating some gay stories again :) Today’s finally December 6th, which makes it the 365th day Ernie and I have officially been together. No such thing or no such person can restate how madly I’m in love with this man. Many say that you don’t need anyone in your life but yourself, it’s you who makes yourself happy at the end of the day. But who would ever have realized that we do need someone, we all need that special person in our life making us a better person each day. And I’ve been lucky enough to come across this man. Although I’ve made several terrible mistakes in the previous months, the real Chihuahua has awaken to realize what my past lives have worked for to bring this to me. Ernie was the one who’s been through serious thick and thin with me, the one who dealt with my intense sensitivity and emotions, the one who accepted my every flaw — countless ones, the one who never gave up on me, the one who loved me truly from the bottom of his hairy heart. Dear readers, I believe I have found the love of my life, the man I WILL marry and spend the rest of my life with.
It’s been estimated a year and a half since I’ve graduated. And ever since then, I’ve been drifiting away from friends. Now, I really don’t have that many friends, just about 3 that I actually talk to from high school. I’m going onto the stage where graduation drifts my relationship with others apart. I’m in the library at the college right now and suddenly reminiscing on the amazing times I had with amazing people such as @fucknkristi when she posted on my facebook wall. After graduation, a lot changes. A lot of us wouldn’t realize until we actually notice it. Half of our friends would move into a university and the other half would move to another state. I guess it’s just the reality that high school is high school, once you leave, everything leaves you. I miss you all :|
Ernie and I took a trip to Sedona last week. Surprisingly, he has never been there though have lived in Arizona for more than a decade. Unexpectedly, it was 9/11!! The weather that day was close to perfect; not too hot and not too cold. As we were driving along the highway up to the mountains of Sedona, we came across this giant land of greens which is hardly seen around Arizona. We felt as if we were in Ireland. We hiked, shopped around beautiful stores with a whole lot of unseen items for purchase, and ate at a fancy restaurant with a beautiful view, able of seeing the clouds running off of the mountain edges. Overall, we had an amazing trip just several hours away from home. Definitely looking forward to explore elsewhere with the man I love :)
Dad asked me the question that I never wanted him to ask, about me sexual orientation. As soon as he asked, I thought he’d know either way so might as well tell him the truth. He got really disappointed in my answer and started to get infuriated. He demanded me to pack my belongings and leave the house by the night and so I did. I was hiding in my room when I heard him bawling in the living room about a half hour later and with all honesty, I thought deep into myself to see if there was a sense of guilt within. But no, I didn’t feel a thing at all. I grew up without the parental love that every child deserves. All my dad did throughout my childhood was just provide for food and shelter. Therefore, my sister and I defines a whole lot of happiness outside of the house and away from my parents. And now that my dad knows about my situation, he’s demanding me to see a psychiatrist because he considers me a psycho and a non-human being. Also, throwing pressure of the whole family on me. As a child, I put all others before me. If I give up the one thing that makes me happy just for those who are being ignorant, where else would I find happiness? If I give up on my happiness because I treat them as a family, who’s going to treat me like a family when they’re ignorantly living in the old school days where they’re USED TO seeing a man and a woman together? In the end, Ernie’s going to be the one who will be by my side on the bed, not my mother, not my father, not my grandma. I choose to persist the happiness I desire…
All high school and middle schoolers are whining and complaining about starting school tomorrow. Shut up. I’m desperate to go back to high school! Not happening, I’m really excited for college to start again. 14 more days!!!! Ernie and I have the same math class!
P.S. Today is our 8 month anniversary. Honestly my longest relationship EVER! I’m sorry I forgot babe :( Pweese fogib meh. I lobez yu
For just about the past 3 weeks, Ernie and I have been planning our way to move into a home of our own. And yesterday, we finally got an apartment!!!!!!!!!!!!! We’ll both equally excited to live together starting the next month :) Life’s going to be fantastic.
Ernie woke up and told me he had a surprise for me tonight and so he demanded me to cancel all my plan for the day. He took me 40 minutes away from home to Tempe to check out the nice lake we had for Arizona then took me out to dinner at this new sushi bar called Sayuri. We walked in circles and circles to find it! It wasn’t really that good. But I highly appreciate and love Ernie for the plans he made for the night. It was fun :)
Well, to me. I’m just at work, pretty quiet today. Then there’s this mother who seemed well in her 50s came in with her 30 year old-ish son. A few tables had crashed in at the same time so I was quiet busy taking care of tables at the same time. But yeah, they were black. The son ordered the biggest entree we had called the egg fu yong. After I placed their dinner on the table, the guy asked for a side of hot sauce, so I brought it to him. After a few minutes I went to check on them, I said, “Do you like spicy food? Because if you wanted the egg fu yong to be spicy, I can ask the chef to make it spicy, less work for you.” He replied, “Thank you, I’ll try that next time.” So I walked away until they needed some boxes for their left overs. They complimented, “You’re really nice. Thank you for your great service, we really enjoyed our dinner here. No one had ever ask what you asked me, EVER.” “Oh thank you! That’s really nice, but it’s part of my job, gotta do what’s best to satisfy the customers ya know?” I responded. The mother added, “Well dang, we would never find another man like you!” I felt so happy on the inside. Out of all the customers that I’ve genuinely helped and served, no one has EVER complimented on my service like that. It made my day :)
We are only a few months from summer. I love the weather like hell for swimming and water parks, but I’m desperately waiting for winter to crash in so I can wear some of the other clothes in my closet! Also reminisce the lovely things Ernie and I did when we first met ;) Hello Christmas? I’m waiting!